Diabetes

Hello and welcome again to my latest blog.
I wanted to share with you how in just one week how my life has changed yet again!
Having suffered Pancreatitis 10 years ago, it left me with the condition of Type 11 diabetes.  It was devastating at the time and I never really accepted the condition.  Over the years I have struggled to keep a reasonable weight, (not easy because of my love of food) but knowing being overweight was not good have kept a close eye.
Just this week went to the doctor about one thing, and discovered that it was connected to the high sugar levels in my blood, to be told that I have to go on Insulin.  I cannot express clearly enough the absolute fear and dread that I felt.  I already feel dodgy about needles and having to do this EVERY day was a daunting prospect.  However, what I found useful was contacting Diabetes UK which I have never done before, and after that phone call I felt so much better.  It was a huge help knowing that it wasn't anything that I had done, but it is a progressive illness. I had begun to feel guilty thinking it was the cake perhaps or the biscuit or the sweets I had eaten over the years.  Phew !  Immediately, I felt absolved of all guilt.
On the day that I had to see the Nurse to show me how to inject, I felt a bit apprehensive, but listened intently as to how it was to be done and we had some 'dummy runs' with a rubber duck. It certainly broke the tension. Throughout all of it, I started to feel sad. It was almost as if I now had to admit defeat. Like I fought it and fought it and I lost.That sort of feeling.
What has made it even more spectacular is the fact that so many people have to be informed.  Yes, in 24 hours I will probably have my license revoked for driving until DVLA decide that I am fit to drive.(can take up to 6 weeks for them to gather and check info)  My license was supposed to run until I am 70 and now I have to be assessed every 2-3 years.  I discovered that I have been driving for 31 years, never ever had a parking ticket in my life and no penalties on my license, yet somehow because I am still considered to be a type 11 diabetic, but now having insulin all that changes. Oh and let's not forget the Insurance company on top of that who need to be informed.  I understand that some insurance premiums rise in some cases, as if they are not sky high already.  Oh and the icing on the cake, if you pardon the pun, is that every time I get into my car I have to do a finger prick test. You have no idea how many times I go in and out using my car every time.
That's some of the negative stuff.  Now let's discuss the positive for their must be some right?

I am told that I won't be dropping off to sleep at a drop of a hat. I will feel energized and ready to take the world on.  I guess those are big positives for me because I felt exhausted all the time. So it's not all bad.
I have managed to get my head around the whole idea of taking insulin and actually it isn't as bad as I first thought.  It was the fear of the unknown. The mind is a powerful tool and you and I can use it for negative or for positive.  I have to just look around me and see how many people are disabled, blind, deaf, amputees,
and recognize that I have nothing to complain about.  At least I woke up this morning.  Do you really understand how many people went to bed last night and did not wake up this morning?
So I have to take insulin and there will be changes in my life to contend with, but a small price to pay for having some quality of life.  No room for pity parties !! Once again, as I have said in previous blogs it's all about the way you think.( I am not exempt from feeling sorry for myself.) The thing that always pulls me through is that when you think you got it bad, someone out there has it worse. It is truly a humbling experience. Look upwards and onwards and enjoy your life.....

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